Hello Friends! It has been such a long time since we talked. I miss writing and am going to be working to be more consistent in the new year. I am still working out all of the details on a posting schedule, but one series I know for sure is going to be documenting our trying to conceive journey. You may or may not know, but Josh and I have been trying to conceive for about five years. And, by trying to conceive, I mean not trying not to conceive. We have never really done much to get pregnant, but we also have never done anything to not get pregnant. Obviously, we have not yet been successful in conceiving. This month is the first month that we have actually been trying with our doctor.
I want to document this journey for a few different reasons. First, because I want to be able to look back on this journey in the future. I know in my heart of hearts that God is taking us through this journey for a reason. I want to be able to look back on this journey and give God all the glory. Second, I want to be able to inspire and help others on this journey. This has been a hard road. There have been many tears and prayers and feeling like I am all alone. But, I have been able to find new friends along this journey that are going through similar situations. We have been able to support each other through the rough days, and I hope to be able to be that for support for someone else. I know how much I have needed and appreciated it over the last five years.
I wanted to start this series off by telling you about our first month on fertility treatments, but I decided that you probably need to know the background first. So, let’s start there.
For as long as I can remember, my cycles have been very inconsistent. As in like maybe a few times a year inconsistent. In junior high and high school, I never cared about it because who really enjoys having their periods? When Josh and I got married, we assumed that we would have kids right away. All I have ever wanted to be was a mom. I figured it would happen quickly. And then it didn’t. At first, we were having fun as newlyweds and it didn’t really bother me. We didn’t have a lot of money at the time, so I kind of viewed it as a blessing in disguise. We wouldn’t have been able to afford a child back then. But then, we both got better jobs and health insurance…and thought okay now we are ready. It still didn’t happen.
Two years ago, I ended up having a period for like six months straight. I couldn’t figure out why it wouldn’t stop. I tried everything even seeing an herbalist and multiple doctors. They did blood work and ultra sounds and finally prescribed birth control to stop the bleeding. My period ended, and then started again around March 31st. I know this because it was my birthday. Josh had gotten us a hotel room at the Harris on The Strip. We invited friends to go out to dinner, but planned to have a fun time playing tourist until everyone got off of work. We were walking around when all of a sudden I got the most excruciating pain in my uterus. It would not go away. I told Josh that I wanted to go back to the room. I decided to take a hot shower. Usually when I am sick or having a gallbladder attack, a hot shower does the trick. Not this time. I remember laying on the floor in the hotel shower screaming and crying. Nothing helped. I called the doctor and she said if it didn’t go away by the end of the night to go to the hospital. It did finally stop before everyone got there for supper, but I knew I needed to do something. I went to a different doctor who diagnosed me with Polycystic Ovarian Symptom.
I kind of always knew that I had PCOS. I am a Googler, so I had self diagnosed myself in like high school. It was nice to have an answer. The doctor’s recommendation was to take birth control for 6 months and try to lose weight. Neither of which I actually did. The birth control made me really sick, and was like a low, low estrogen type so it was pretty expensive. We also didn’t change any of our eating or exercising habits either, so we didn’t lose any weight.
Then, my sister moved here, and she is very into health and fitness. We joined Beachbody with her and really worked toward losing the weight. I did lose about 15 pounds, but still didn’t get pregnant. And then we got totally off track. We stopped doing Beachbody and gained all of the weight back. That brings us to last month. We went to a new OBGYN actually just for an annual exam. While I was there, I told him that I wanted to discuss getting pregnant. I told him that I had PCOS and have been trying for five years. I honestly thought he would prescribe birth control and tell me to lose weight like the last two doctors. I prayed though that whatever God’s will would be done that day and that I would be open to whatever the outcome. Much to my surprise, he actually prescribed our first round of fertility treatments.
We started with Progesterone to induce my period, then Clomid to make me ovulate. We just finished round one yesterday. Next week, I will write about our first month. It has kind of been an emotional and physical roller coaster. I will explain it all next week! This series will most likely not be on Fridays normally because I want to bring back Financial Friday. I imagine it would be on Monday’s…so you won’t have to wait a whole week to hear the rest of the story!